If I were her, I'd love you back.

The concert was over, the crowd was drifting away, but I stood rooted to the spot, taking photographs. The world was cracking.

Remember: the time you feel lonely is the time you most need to be by yourself. Life's cruelest irony.

Your kind never failed at nothing yet, for you never stopped at nothing long enough to find out.

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Happy New Year.

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And suddenly I had an inkling of what it must feel like to be mad.

The truth was obscure, too profound and too pure, to live it, you had to explode.

His breathing was labored, thick. He kept his eyes shut. Yet I was convinced that he could see everything, that now he could see the truth in all things.

Our real discoveries come from chaos.

You've got to think about all the things you like and decide whether they're worth sticking around for. And if they are, you'll find a way to do this. "And what if I don't?" Then you go away. And you don't get to like anything anymore.

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How long will this last, this delicious feeling of being alive?

But I was already a step ahead. I didn't trust anyone: not for directions, not for rides, not for advice either. Sure, it sucked to be lost, but I long ago realized that I preferred it to depending on anyone else to get me where I needed to go. That was the thing about being alone, in theory or in principle. Whatever happened - good, bad, or anywhere in between - it was always, if nothing else, your own.

I want so badly to believe that there is truth, that love is real. And I want life in every word, to the extent that it's absurd.

Some people can just move on, you know. They mourn and cry and then they're done with it or at least appear to be. But to me, I don't know. I didn't want to fix it; I didn't want to forget it. It wasn't something that was broken, it was just something that happened. And I'm finding ways, everyday, of working around it. I'm respecting and remembering it, but I'm getting along with my life at the same time.

I hope you're happy and completely lonely.

do not lose heart
we were made for these times.

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